Buying More Time
I left my last post a bit too open ended. I didn’t choose hospice. I just wasn’t mentally ready for a hospice discussion yet. Unfortunately I should have seen the discussion creeping up more and more as treatments have failed me more and more. My cancer is a bastard, it keeps getting smarter. Each time a treatment fails, the chance of the next one working well is less and less. I do have a list of hospice companies people...
Hospice or Navelbine and Herceptin
One of the things I never wanted to be tied to was an oxygen machine. Which I should slap myself as I was a young dumb teenager that thought smoking was cool once upon a time when I was a “hardcore rebel.” Nothing says “hardcore” and “rebel” like I am going to suck down this disgusting cigarette and fill my lungs and body with poisonous chemicals. So it almost seemed somewhat less surprising that...
6 Years of The Beast
I was diagnosed with breast cancer on the day before my 31st birthday in 2010. My five year cancerversary came and went last winter. I was so sick I hardly knew what was going on… because I was desperate to try Tykerb and Xeloda to kill my brain metastases, so desperate that I did not tell my doctor that I was using the restroom more than 14 times a day and couldn’t really leave the house (my brother and his family stayed...
Braaaaiiiiiinnnnnnssss
My MRI came back with new tumors in my brain. My brain, spine and breast oncologist was not happy about this as my last scan we had been able to say I had been stable for quite some time and then BOOM I was growing tumors. The new ones are primarily back in my intrathecal space, but also in my brain too. We had just had a clean (as in stable, there were several tumors still in there) MRI a month before, but, I swear, when you have...
Wheezy McCheezy
I feel as though every time I add something that can be visible on my body that screams HEYYY!!!! I have metastatic breast cancer!!! That I just get sadder and sadder. I don’t want people to look at me and know I have breast cancer all of the time. I have hair right now, it is my one little break… I am happy to talk about it, but most people don’t ask, it is just kind of awkward. When I had my intrathecal chemo...
Doxil Bandits
I realized it has been a few weeks since I updated the good ‘ol blog. When a blogger is MIA people start to worry (I do the same to other people, I get it). There hasn’t been a whole lot to report, but I guess there has, depending on how you look at it! I officially started Doxil on November 18th, it was a bit faster than most of the chemos I have had so far. Not to mention it is 4 weeks apart. It feels almost like a...