My Shadow
Jun28

My Shadow

It is hard to believe it has been over a year since I lost my beautiful Mandi. I know I haven’t posted in a while, since January a lot has been going on. I met someone who shares a similar burden of grief and she has been helping me out immensely. Having someone who understands on a deeper level what loosing your spouse is like has had a huge impact on my wellbeing. I wouldn’t be doing as well as I am without her, and I am...

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Holiday Roller Coaster
Jan18

Holiday Roller Coaster

Holidays are hard enough without the added grief of experiencing them for the first time alone. There are so many things Mandi would do to make each holiday special, and I miss them so much it hurts. I might add the house is no where near as festive as the neighbors, decorating was one of Mandi’s specialties. I do feel like I should pull some decorations out, but find it incredibly hard to do without stirring up emotions. It has...

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A Ray of Light Through the Dark Clouds
Oct09

A Ray of Light Through the Dark Clouds

It has been a fairly busy few weeks since I last posted, there have been a lot of things going on at work and at home. I do like to stay busy as it helps me focus on things that are not painful for me. Not that I don’t have those days where I just want to stay in bed and wrap myself in blankets and hide from the outside world. But things have been different lately, when everything was getting dark to the point I didn’t...

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Anniversary of our Love
Aug31

Anniversary of our Love

It has been a difficult couple of weeks since I last posted, there is so much going on it is enough to make anyone’s head spin. Work has been steady and picking up pace now that school is starting, but busy is good as it keeps my mind occupied. The hardest thing to swallow was our wedding anniversary, that was a tough day. No matter how hard I tried to get myself moving, nothing seemed to work. You can’t escape grief, even...

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Camping in Gooseberry
Aug14

Camping in Gooseberry

I spent a lot of time getting Fifi ready for her first big adventure, it was a lot more work than I remember. Mandi did a lot of things despite not feeling good to make sure our trips were special. She loved to camp in her RV, she would start planning the next trip the minute we got back in town, sometimes before we even unpacked. Regardless where we would go, if we were away from home she had a smile on her face. Travel was her...

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