The Next Chapter
After a summer of many fun adventures time has been creeping up on me. The little voice that kept asking me about work, whether I can do my job, the one where I worked so hard to get where I am, and be happy with my output if I did – the voice needed a decision (yes, I am hearing voices again). I am working out. My pain is in a better place, but I am not physically up to 9:00 to 5:00 (plus evenings, weekends and all the fun that...
Palliative Care and Dancing in the Rain
Monday I officially started my Power Program at Huntsman Cancer Institute. I have been counting down the days until I was strong enough to be able to join this program. PT and the shots of doom were prep and being off of the chemo part of my infusions certainly helps. 2 weeks ago I was huffing and puffing behind Mike trying to walk across the parking lot. Last week I completed my first 20 minutes on the elliptical that didn’t...
A Margin of Error
I got my tumor counts today. My oncologist knows I am hanging my world around these tiny little numbers. Mostly because I really want my current regimen to last a very long time. My counts went up by two points, which is within the margin of error. Funny that we seem to celebrate a DROP of two points, but an up of two points is no big deal. Which of course is the reality because tumor markers are only there to look for trends....
Anxious and Paranoid
As my next appointment creeps up on me, this week, I keep wondering what that turmoil at the pit of my stomach is… until I realized I am sick and anxious for those little numbers I will get on Friday. My tumor markers. I changed my schedule so that I now get my tumor markers drawn Thursday so that I will have them on Friday. We have found out through scans and progress so far that my tumor markers are clearly indicative of...
Love, Cancer and 67 Date Night Ideas
I am amazed Mike hasn’t murdered me yet. Most men have to go through menopause once with their wife, I believe we have done it 2 times now and have been through Tamoxifen and Letrazole. Estrogen blockers are quite similar to going into menopause, at least for me. I will laugh, get extremely agitated and then cry within a 10 minute period. Over something like the dog puking on the carpet (not that my dogs ever puke on the carpet,...
15 Random Facts About Me
Nancy challenged breast cancer bloggers to post 15 random facts about themselves. So here it goes: 1. Some may know it, some may not, but I love art and I spent many years studying art and creating a variety of pieces (most of which I left in the basement of an apartment I moved out of, never to be seen again). Lately I have been trying to get back into creating more things and giving them away so that my friends and family. 2. I used...