A Margin of Error
I got my tumor counts today. My oncologist knows I am hanging my world around these tiny little numbers. Mostly because I really want my current regimen to last a very long time. My counts went up by two points, which is within the margin of error. Funny that we seem to celebrate a DROP of two points, but an up of two points is no big deal. Which of course is the reality because tumor markers are only there to look for trends....
Anxious and Paranoid
As my next appointment creeps up on me, this week, I keep wondering what that turmoil at the pit of my stomach is… until I realized I am sick and anxious for those little numbers I will get on Friday. My tumor markers. I changed my schedule so that I now get my tumor markers drawn Thursday so that I will have them on Friday. We have found out through scans and progress so far that my tumor markers are clearly indicative of...
Love, Cancer and 67 Date Night Ideas
I am amazed Mike hasn’t murdered me yet. Most men have to go through menopause once with their wife, I believe we have done it 2 times now and have been through Tamoxifen and Letrazole. Estrogen blockers are quite similar to going into menopause, at least for me. I will laugh, get extremely agitated and then cry within a 10 minute period. Over something like the dog puking on the carpet (not that my dogs ever puke on the carpet,...
NED and I Can’t be Friends
I need to let NED go. Stop hanging on to him, wishing he would ask me for a dance. With how extensive my mets were, being where I am now is nice. NED is no evidence of disease, meaning no visable tumors – not cured when you have Stage IV metastatic breast cancer, but when you beat them back that far, sometimes it can take the cancer extra long to come back swinging. It is also rare. This is my first scan after kicking back the...
15 Random Facts About Me
Nancy challenged breast cancer bloggers to post 15 random facts about themselves. So here it goes: 1. Some may know it, some may not, but I love art and I spent many years studying art and creating a variety of pieces (most of which I left in the basement of an apartment I moved out of, never to be seen again). Lately I have been trying to get back into creating more things and giving them away so that my friends and family. 2. I used...