The World Keeps Spinning
Jun10

The World Keeps Spinning

The last two months have been a lot of work adjusting to life without my beautiful Mandi. Time slows down while the rest of the world continues moving forward at it’s normal pace. Wanting to take things on when I am ready versus reality has been a bit overwhelming. Medical, insurance, and credit card companies do not care to wait for you to be ready and it can stir up emotions on an epic scale. Even little things like...

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Heavy Heart and Fuzzy Dogs
May25

Heavy Heart and Fuzzy Dogs

Seems like a common thing strangers ask when you lose your significant other is, “Do you have any kids?” which I reply, “Yes, but they are hairy and have paws!”. Mandi never wanted to have any children and I was fine with that decision, and honestly I never put much thought in to it until now. I have read a lot about people going through what I am while having to care for their kids in the process, and that has...

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What Would Mandi Do?
May13

What Would Mandi Do?

What would Mandi do? That is the first thing that comes to mind when I wake up, trying to hold back a tsunami of tears. I keep telling myself this is going to get easier and in time I will find a way to accept what has happened. Everyone is different and how people grieve is as unique as their fingerprint. There really is no timeframe to reference nor a perfect how-to guide on how to make the process easier. Mandi always seemed to...

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Walking in the Fog
May06

Walking in the Fog

It has been almost a month now since I lost the most precious thing in my life and it feels like yesterday. Loosing someone you spent almost every day with for the last eleven years is harder than I had ever imagined. Mandi and I would talk occasionally about what would happen if this day would come but honestly, I refused to imagine that someday my beautiful wife would no longer be by my side. But here we are, the thing I tried so...

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Mandi’s Story
Apr25

Mandi’s Story

Susan G. Komen featured a documentary of Mandi recently. I have a hard time watching it without breaking down in to tears, but it is a beautiful tribute to my wife. My biggest hope is that this video helps bring awareness to metastatic breast cancer as it is the reason she is not here with me today. So many amazing people are lost to this terrible disease and we need a cure now before we loose any more to this nightmare. Cancer does...

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